Kita dan Nanti

Saya diam ketika hendak bicara
Kamu bicara dengan lagak kasarmu
Apa kamu marah?

Saya hanya terhenyak ketika semua itu tidak terjadi
Hanya saja, kamu terkejut ketika kamu tahu,
Saya tak akan berbicara padamu
Tapi kepada kita di masa depan.

Akankah kita masih akan bersama?

Kita dan Kata

Kita tak banyak berkata kala bertatap
Kita hanya saling bercerita tentang banyak jiwa
Jiwa yang selalu kita kagumi

Kita tak bicara tentang kita
Senyum kita tak terkendali ketika mata saling tatap
Lalu kembali berkata tentang jiwa lainnya

Kita tak rela berpisah ketika sudah waktunya
Kita hanya saling bicara dalam hati
Sudahkah saatnya?

Aku bertanya karena hatilah yang bertanya
Aku berkata karena rindulah yang berkata
Aku diam ketika mulut tak henti tersenyum
Karena aku bahagia.




10/12/17

Diam dalam Dia

Dia bercerita dalam diamnya dia.
Dia sebuah nestapa yang hadir dalam kehangatan.
Kupikir dia hanya berkelana tanpa berniat tinggal.
Dia tinggal untuk waktu yang lama,
kemudian dia pergi berkelana kembali.

Dia bercerita dalam diamnya dia.
Dia adalah sebuah awal gejolak jiwa dalam dinginnya pagi.
Dia adalah awal dari perdebatan hati yang selalu ingin dia tinggal.
Tapi dia selalu punya jalan untuk selalu pergi
lalu kembali jika sudah saatnya.

Dia bercerita dalam diamnya dia,
dan kamu adalah yang mengerti dengan diamnya dia.
Tidak denganku.





09/12/17

See you, love!

Its not the story that I won't happen in my life. But, God has the plan for me in my life since I was birth yet. Before I go trough the paragraph what I wanna share, you know, I almost 23 yo and I didn't realize it till yesterday. 

November 2, I don't know what I wanna reach in my life for real. I'm doing what I have to not what I wanna do. I think, I need to be prepare again and realize if I have to do something real. I hope I can be a better person for everyone who close to me and for my God. Amen. 

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The (real) title : See you when I can see you, love!

I wanna get a good partner so I'm trying to be a good person. Maybe not now, but someday, I hope, we will meet as good person with good personality, habit, in  good mood and best time. 

We're trying to denial what the feel right now. I hope, we will meet again in the right time with best smile and have best food ever.

You know, it was nice to met you last month. I'm happy till now and I remembered everything what we did together. Although, maybe it was wrong decision that I made but at least, I got the facts that I ever know. This is the reason why I choose the title.

Location : dialogue art space

Taken photo by : desty.permata

Date : October, 15 2017

RIP

It's time to let him go for real.
I'll miss you so much, pa!

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My grandfather passed away this morning. I was shocked for a while. I need to yo work but I'm sad. It's totally make me sad.

I called him papa ayi cause some reason we called like that. So, I'm here and far away from my home. I called my family and I tried to get the information but I totally cried cause of it.

I wanna go there but I had class and went to company today. I joined the group and I was happy. When I'm alone, I cried myself and thought what I can't do.

He's my super grandpa btw. He would ask me about tobacco and sometime I bought for him. I wasn't meet him a long time ago. Maybe 1 months ago.

I hope, he gets a good place in heaven. Amen.